Rainy days..
Raining in San Diego…
and I’m moving into my new place…by the sea…
December 2010
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Last day.
Today was the last day of college for me. For good.
It hasn’t hit me…yet.
I’m too busy thinking about what paper I got to write, that assignment that is due soon.
Things are getting hectic, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I hope this new freedom I receive will allow me to let my dreams reach further than I ever imagined. But before anything else, I know that ultimately, my fate rests in the one that I call for help when I need it, the one who gives me what I need and desire when I remember, and the one that can take it all away when I forget where I truly come from.
God, I know my life could not, would not be any other way. Let’s do this right. Together.
Overeactive.
Trying hard not to show that I’m angry is tougher than I thought.
Frustration fills my heart
You bring me down
You drag me, drag me on the ground
You accuse me of things that a person who hates you would do
your words fly like darts
Piercing into the
softest
deepest
most loving
parts of my heart for you
I get up from where we sit
because I can’t breathe as I feel these stones in my chest start to fit
into a wall much like the one you have for me
and for everyone who loves you.
You say I’ve gone too far
I say you’ve crossed the line
I keep quiet as you say the blame is all mine.
There’s no resolution, only empty threats
The Truth gets blown up
as I try my best to forget
Your voice gets louder as I look away
this pain that you have, it’s only shown
the clear message that you trust no one
not even your own
there’s so much power to your words, to who you are.
and it’s sad that you have no clue
that when a mother teaches her kids to hate their father
don’t you see?
that it’s reflective of only you.
